Do you ever wonder if you choose being lonely? cause when i think about it there are so many chances that i have missed out and people i have let down cause maybe i was depressed or i felt like i didn't belong with them or.. i know it probably sounds silly and it makes me sound very shallow but i often feel that having friends and a social life really is not worth if your friends are not like-minded people.. I rather spend my time alone doing something i enjoy then being with people just cause..
What i am trying to say is i understand that there are people out there who are genuinely lonely and it is not a choice and you have tried to make friends but have not been able to but then there is people like me. Who often rather stay in, read a book, watch a movie, listen to music, daydream.. i daydream so much that my standards is getting to high, it is awful and i wish it would go away.. Whenever i am around real people i get so disappointed and i just wanna go back to my head where everything and everybody is perfect. Or maybe my friends are out there somewhere? And sometimes i think maybe some are not meant to have friends.
What i am trying to say is i understand that there are people out there who are genuinely lonely and it is not a choice and you have tried to make friends but have not been able to but then there is people like me. Who often rather stay in, read a book, watch a movie, listen to music, daydream.. i daydream so much that my standards is getting to high, it is awful and i wish it would go away.. Whenever i am around real people i get so disappointed and i just wanna go back to my head where everything and everybody is perfect. Or maybe my friends are out there somewhere? And sometimes i think maybe some are not meant to have friends.
